I've overcome a lot of obstacles in life. I've worked hard to be where I am. I'm beautiful and not because of the way I look. I'm a fighter and I will fucking crawl and claw my way to what I want in life... Regardless of the pace at which I attain my goals...the factors that may be adversary to my focus...I will not be complacent. I will not give up. I will not let self defeating thoughts lead to compromising actions. I. Me... am in control of this one life on the planet & I only get one. I will look the shit storm of chaos that's got me in a funk right now in the face and tell it to fuck off because I've had far worse times in life & I know I'm blessed where I am right now. I know I'll be blessed should harder times come. I'll keep in perspective that winter impacts my jolly demeanor and do what I need to perk up. I will be as regimented as I want and prioritize what gets done in my day so that I'm less stressed... Even if MY priorities seem odd to others. I won't say yes when no is needed. I will stop feeling guilty if things aren't perfect and allow myself a little bit of grace to celebrate all that's good... I'm thankful my teammate helps with perspective & reminds me often of reasons I'm rad... having a steadfast cheerleader when I'm overwhelmed is immeasurably important, I need that. I will be ok to admit that I don't want to do life alone. I will give myself grace to grieve regardless of timelines. I will be confident that life will become what I make it into & that this will align with what I want. I'm overall a positive thinker and I will cheer myself on more the way that I so easily do for others. I got this. I will trust that the Lord is doing a good work in me and remember that He knit me together with purpose, that I'm blessed with each new day, that my purpose has not yet been made complete & there's reason for the breath He's given me for today. I will be present in the gift of life and I will soak in the peace of doing good. I will allow the questions I have with God because at least I'm open to Him. I will not let judgmental assholes define my character based on their petty checklists, nor will I defend myself when my life doesn't stack up- for MY God looks at my heart & this heart is clean. I will say fuck off if needed because it helps me focus on how little significance some words and situations have on my reality. I will drink and swear and pray and praise all in the same minutes of a day because my spiritual journey allows the fullness of who I am & doesn't exist with boundaries that say those things can't be. I will allow myself to smile fully and laugh from my belly in boisterous song. I will sing off key, wrong words, out of tempo & do so happily because I'm hearing the words as I go & letting them speak to something that may need that word. I will uplift and encourage others no matter where my headspace is in a day because we all can complain, but life comes in the sweet spots of appreciation... because we can all find our own faults and need reminders of goodness. I will be the best, the only Mindy May Spencer ever created because she's one kick ass girl, no changes needed.
And now you know a snipit of how my bathroom mirror peep talks go. How do yours sound?