Friday, July 23, 2010

A mosaic of thankful.

I just have to be thankful. It's been about a year since Nick and I got on the road full time...a little over a year ago, and maybe almost 2 now since we put in some tough work on our at the time crumbling marriage. My heart finally feels like I've come full circle. That all the broken spots aren't just mended, they are really healed. I was just driving tonight and I was overjoyed to feel so complete.
I spent some time with an old friend tonight and he said "You really seem like you guys are in a great place." I told him that we are and went on to say that my marriage just feels safe...comfortable. Then I thought, "like home." We've moved a lot and had MUCH transition, but I'm glad to feel so at peace that I'm home wherever we are together. I can't imagine life being any different. I was also talking about being on the road and in "full time" ministry and I said "It's so awesome to see people be filled with hope right before your eyes." You know, we see so many people who have no hope at all come to Jesus and though their situation doesn't automatically change, they do. Their posture, their countenance, everything. I told him I'm so blessed to be able to be a part of that...and I'd be poor any day to do it.
I am just beyond thankful that we can make a mess of our life...even something that is really good and God can take the things we shatter and turn them into the most beautiful mosaic to shine through. I'm thankful that I was able to be broken, that our marriage was able to be strengthened through my brokenness and that more than anything we are on the other side! I get butterflies again just thinking about the fact that I get to see Nick in one day after not having seen him for a week. I treasured all week that last kiss in the driveway before I left. I'm simply a lucky, lucky woman. Not because life has handed me everything easy, but because I serve a God who takes my burdens and makes them light if I'm willing to give them over to Him (sometimes much easier said than done). I'd love to write a post about some of the things I've learned through the hard work of letting God work, but since it IS 3:00am I'll save that for another time. For now, I'm gonna leave it at that.